[Loki and Thor] Take two
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Twenty minutes had proved to be more than enough time to raid the café's bar area, taking several (eight? ten? Loki didn't count) bottles of various liquors. The God of Mischief was generally an occasional drinker or social drinker at best, but Thor was another matter. His brother had prodigious tolerance even for an Asgardian.
He wasn't used to a cryptic, secretive Thor, or a Thor with a bizarre tendency to follow him around like a puppy, or a Thor that wept on him for no apparent reason. It was strange, it was worrying, it had to stop. The solution had to be somewhere in what had happened between Loki's 'now' and Thor's, and if Thor needed to be drunk to give him those facts, his brother was more than happy to take that request seriously.
The acquired bottles went into the little nook under the stairs - not to stay there long, almost certainly. After due consideration, Loki also hauled the trash can out of the bathroom and placed it by the large bed on the lower level, for empties. It was the only decent place to sit that wasn't in the upper-level area that was for sleeping or the outdoor balcony.
At that point, all there was to do was wait.
He wasn't used to a cryptic, secretive Thor, or a Thor with a bizarre tendency to follow him around like a puppy, or a Thor that wept on him for no apparent reason. It was strange, it was worrying, it had to stop. The solution had to be somewhere in what had happened between Loki's 'now' and Thor's, and if Thor needed to be drunk to give him those facts, his brother was more than happy to take that request seriously.
The acquired bottles went into the little nook under the stairs - not to stay there long, almost certainly. After due consideration, Loki also hauled the trash can out of the bathroom and placed it by the large bed on the lower level, for empties. It was the only decent place to sit that wasn't in the upper-level area that was for sleeping or the outdoor balcony.
At that point, all there was to do was wait.
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Date: 2018-08-19 05:31 am (UTC)That was how he ended up with cut feet because he couldn't be bothered to tidy away glass shards, for one thing.
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Date: 2018-08-19 05:47 am (UTC)"I'll move out of the way, so come reclaim your place."
Thor shoves off to where he was sitting before and idly taps the mouth of the bottle with a soft, but audible clicking sound.
"Father was always keeping so many things secret from us," he says, looking at the wall. "We never talked about anything. Everything about you, everything about me -- it only came out when it was convenient for him."
He takes a breath, and he's suddenly relieved Loki can't see his face.
"I want us to be able to talk about things," he says, feeling suddenly vulnerable. "I'm trying to talk to you about things, but I have no idea what I'm doing."
Thor shakes his head, but doesn't go on any further.
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Date: 2018-08-19 06:04 am (UTC)It used to only come out in extreme cold - Jotunheim, the Casket - but Loki was a shapeshifter. He'd figured out how to change from the shape his father had given him as an infant to the blue of a frost giant almost as soon as he'd learned it was there. Loki held up a hand and changed. Blue skin, red eyes, the same black hair... too small and too skinny, but a frost giant's face.
So Thor would see. Had he ever? "On Jotunheim, one of them touched me, and this happened. After Father exiled you, I snuck into his vault and touched the casket. It happened again." He clenched his fist and let the blue go. Back to 'normal'. "He'd never have told me if I hadn't forced him. I'd have just stayed as I was. Ignorant, out of place, a caged monster not even permitted to see the cage. Forever."
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Date: 2018-08-19 06:16 am (UTC)"He told me he told you," he says. "He said that you hadn't taken it well."
By the time Thor found out, they had both thought Loki was dead. It wasn't as if he'd ever be able to confirm the details.
Thor looks down at the bottle and chuckles to himself. "We had a pretty crummy father sometimes."
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Date: 2018-08-19 06:47 am (UTC)"That's putting it extremely mildly. Crummy!" Where Thor was slurred, Loki just relaxed - as tells went, it meant he was well on his way to legitimately drunk. "D'you know, up until this actual conversation I sort of thought he'd picked me up out of some Father-y need to control his own death. You know? Pick up a monster nobody's using, train it just right, then unleash it when convenient. Sell tickets ahead of time or something. Except he'd already done that long before either of us was even born. So it turns out I'm very pointless." That was the kind of funny thought that probably wouldn't be, later.
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Date: 2018-08-19 12:13 pm (UTC)"No, no, no, no, no," Thor insists. "You're great. Hela's the terrible one. I'd take like --" Thor pauses for a second, trying to conjure up a number. "-- six dozen of you over one Hela."
Probably more than six dozen, but that's the first number that came to mind.
"She's the worst," Thor proclaims, finishing the bottle.
And she the worst because their father shaped her that way.
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Date: 2018-08-19 02:41 pm (UTC)Though they were probably heading there. "Also I definitely don't want the competition."
Number three was on its way to being killed, but someone other than Loki being the worst caught his attention. "Look. Brother. You paper-yelled that she had the same," vague gesture, "thing as me. Do you think he was trying to replace her? That's weird. I'm not a fan."
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Date: 2018-08-19 03:20 pm (UTC)"I got the feeling he was probably afraid of us turning out like her," he says. "It would explain a great deal."
He cracks open that next bottle.
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Date: 2018-08-19 03:40 pm (UTC)"He took over the Nine Realms with Hela," he says. "Conquered them. Then covered it up when it was done and over and Hela was dealt with."
He takes another swig of the bottle.
"I don't want to ever pretend I haven't made mistakes," Thor says. "I want to acknowledge them."
And as he says that, Thor realizes his earlier comment about Frigga and what he wish he had done differently was part of that.
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Date: 2018-08-19 03:59 pm (UTC)"I do think he loved us," he says. "I just don't know if he knew how."
Thor looks back over at Loki, still gripping the bottle in his hand. For a second, it looks like he might say something, but in the end, he just ends up drinking instead.
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Date: 2018-08-19 05:55 pm (UTC)"We've been friends for 1500 years, and you ask why I love you?"
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Date: 2018-08-19 06:43 pm (UTC)"It's not inertia," he clarifies, because it seems important to say. But how exactly do you explain why you love someone? Even now, Thor can't possibly begin to put any of it into words.
He swishes the bottle a little, trying to make out how much alcohol is still inside. Some.
"There are times," he says, "when I don't understand you, or when you do something I can't possibly justify in my own head." Taking over Midgard being one of them; saving him being another. "I don't think understanding someone is necessary to love them."
Loki already knows this, though, if he's being truthful about loving him.
"We've been together many, many years," he says, "But there were many times where I could have chosen to stop loving you, and I didn't. Because you're a person with meaning in my life, someone I don't want to give up. Someone I wouldn't want to give up."
For a brief second, his mind imagines Loki's body aboard The Statesman and he has to push it away with all his force. He gives his brother a tight-lipped smile, then downs the rest of his drink.
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Date: 2018-08-19 06:50 pm (UTC)Instead, the air needed to be let out, a little. He shoved Thor in the shoulder. "Sentimental ass."
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