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Twenty minutes had proved to be more than enough time to raid the café's bar area, taking several (eight? ten? Loki didn't count) bottles of various liquors. The God of Mischief was generally an occasional drinker or social drinker at best, but Thor was another matter. His brother had prodigious tolerance even for an Asgardian.

He wasn't used to a cryptic, secretive Thor, or a Thor with a bizarre tendency to follow him around like a puppy, or a Thor that wept on him for no apparent reason. It was strange, it was worrying, it had to stop. The solution had to be somewhere in what had happened between Loki's 'now' and Thor's, and if Thor needed to be drunk to give him those facts, his brother was more than happy to take that request seriously.

The acquired bottles went into the little nook under the stairs - not to stay there long, almost certainly. After due consideration, Loki also hauled the trash can out of the bathroom and placed it by the large bed on the lower level, for empties. It was the only decent place to sit that wasn't in the upper-level area that was for sleeping or the outdoor balcony.

At that point, all there was to do was wait.

Date: 2018-08-19 05:15 am (UTC)
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"I still wish it had been," he says, opening another bottle. He'd finally hit buzzed, but he wanted to be more than that. Especially now. "I'd been so obsessed with myself and my feelings then that I wasn't concerned at all for yours."

Date: 2018-08-19 05:25 am (UTC)
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"Is that what you want now?" Thor asks, gesturing at his brother with the bottle.

Date: 2018-08-19 05:47 am (UTC)
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Thor drinks for a long moment.

"I'll move out of the way, so come reclaim your place."

Thor shoves off to where he was sitting before and idly taps the mouth of the bottle with a soft, but audible clicking sound.

"Father was always keeping so many things secret from us," he says, looking at the wall. "We never talked about anything. Everything about you, everything about me -- it only came out when it was convenient for him."

He takes a breath, and he's suddenly relieved Loki can't see his face.

"I want us to be able to talk about things," he says, feeling suddenly vulnerable. "I'm trying to talk to you about things, but I have no idea what I'm doing."

Thor shakes his head, but doesn't go on any further.

Date: 2018-08-19 06:16 am (UTC)
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Thor hadn't ever seen him like this. He knew what frost giants looked like, and on some level, his mind had created what he thought Loki might look like in that form. Somehow, his mental image was divorced from reality, but still Thor wasn't able to pinpoint what was off.

"He told me he told you," he says. "He said that you hadn't taken it well."

By the time Thor found out, they had both thought Loki was dead. It wasn't as if he'd ever be able to confirm the details.

Thor looks down at the bottle and chuckles to himself. "We had a pretty crummy father sometimes."

Date: 2018-08-19 12:13 pm (UTC)
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It's finally starting to hit Thor. At least a little. Between the two of them, they've probably cleared out a significant part of the bar's stores already, and while there was a significant chunk of it still laying on the bed, there was a decent enough amount inside of Thor's stomach for him to stumble right out of the tipsy category and straight into the slightly drunk category.

"No, no, no, no, no," Thor insists. "You're great. Hela's the terrible one. I'd take like --" Thor pauses for a second, trying to conjure up a number. "-- six dozen of you over one Hela."

Probably more than six dozen, but that's the first number that came to mind.

"She's the worst," Thor proclaims, finishing the bottle.

And she the worst because their father shaped her that way.
Edited Date: 2018-08-19 12:13 pm (UTC)

Date: 2018-08-19 03:20 pm (UTC)
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Thor shakes his head, and directs his gaze away from his brother and to the wall. He drains the bottle, throws it back onto the bed and reaches for another. He can't remember the last time he drank this much. He probably would have at his coronation, had he not bungled everything up and was cast out to Midgard.

"I got the feeling he was probably afraid of us turning out like her," he says. "It would explain a great deal."

He cracks open that next bottle.

Date: 2018-08-19 03:40 pm (UTC)
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Thor doesn't say anything to that, but he doesn't down half the drink in one go, either. Instead, he takes a swig, mulls over the revelation that his banishment wasn't actually some elaborate part of Loki's machinations like he always thought it was, then brushes the back of his hand over his lips to dry them.

"He took over the Nine Realms with Hela," he says. "Conquered them. Then covered it up when it was done and over and Hela was dealt with."

He takes another swig of the bottle.

"I don't want to ever pretend I haven't made mistakes," Thor says. "I want to acknowledge them."

And as he says that, Thor realizes his earlier comment about Frigga and what he wish he had done differently was part of that.

Date: 2018-08-19 03:59 pm (UTC)
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Another silence, and then:

"I do think he loved us," he says. "I just don't know if he knew how."

Thor looks back over at Loki, still gripping the bottle in his hand. For a second, it looks like he might say something, but in the end, he just ends up drinking instead.

Date: 2018-08-19 04:12 pm (UTC)
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"He loved you, Loki," Thor says. He's certain of that, even if Loki isn't. "Yes, you can be difficult sometimes, but you're not unlovable."

Date: 2018-08-19 04:35 pm (UTC)
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"I think you overestimate your hold on me," Thor says. He downs more of the bottle. "You can believe what you want, but mother loved you and father loved you too. And I still love you now."

Date: 2018-08-19 05:55 pm (UTC)
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Thor looks over at Loki, puzzled.

"We've been friends for 1500 years, and you ask why I love you?"

Date: 2018-08-19 06:43 pm (UTC)
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Thor knew that Loki loved him, even if love wasn't exactly a word either one of them used that often. Somehow, it was different hearing Loki say it aloud.

"It's not inertia," he clarifies, because it seems important to say. But how exactly do you explain why you love someone? Even now, Thor can't possibly begin to put any of it into words.

He swishes the bottle a little, trying to make out how much alcohol is still inside. Some.

"There are times," he says, "when I don't understand you, or when you do something I can't possibly justify in my own head." Taking over Midgard being one of them; saving him being another. "I don't think understanding someone is necessary to love them."

Loki already knows this, though, if he's being truthful about loving him.

"We've been together many, many years," he says, "But there were many times where I could have chosen to stop loving you, and I didn't. Because you're a person with meaning in my life, someone I don't want to give up. Someone I wouldn't want to give up."

For a brief second, his mind imagines Loki's body aboard The Statesman and he has to push it away with all his force. He gives his brother a tight-lipped smile, then downs the rest of his drink.

Date: 2018-08-19 06:57 pm (UTC)
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"Guilty as charged," he replies. This time, when Thor smiles at his brother, it's brighter than it was before.

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